halooo..had tutorial yest...had tonnss of craps and laughs with my frens..its so nice seeing them again...saying those farni and frustrating stuffs that we see at the attachment centre is super nice...haha...we laugh so much at each other's centre and our rants..i just look at my bunch of gd frens and smiled...hey, i really cherish you all=) tho our poly life's gonna end soon, it dun mean that our friendship's gonna stop too yeah! i just can't get enuf of you all=)
nothing beats chatting with this bunch of ppl...its like, we haven't seen each other for so long but nothing seems to have changed..we're still as close and still able to share abt ourselves..
yeahness...gotta submit the assignment next mon and our sem's over..=) i miss the fun with you all!!!yeah! and we shall spend more time together ya D02 pepx=)...u noe when i hear my junior and frens say that how they dun like their class and i feel so sad for them but it made me love you gals more more more!! cos our class pepx are just so close to one another!! really thank God for u all=)
took some pics...
the huang huangs...
then this is huang's ai ai(not love love, is short short)...
mich and i..haha..she's half mine...wahahaha...the things we do are lesbo enuf for us to be les-es--bians..haha, er..oops, no no..we're both straight....wahaha...haha..we'll play hokey POKEY soon yeah!!=)
the lack of pics taken with the other cucalamonga pepx made me feel so sad..but more pics during holi baby!=)
so pepx, aft this sem end, we'll meet up more okiez...gym+tan+work+play+b'day partaye+partaye+wateva+anything+u all decide+++++ =) haha..
ok, so, back to reality...final assignment...faints! so many many many pages to type type type type...jiayou D gals=)
=)
praise the LORD !!
2:25 PM
i'm @ school's library now..yeah, school...not at the attachment centre...tutorial's at 2...reach early to print my assignment and surf the net..cos i tink my hse's internet connection has got prob again..my laptop can detect the wireless thingy but i just can't connect to it..according to amos the cookie, its cos IBM and the wireless thingy always crash de..huh...so sad..haha..=)
when i was in the bus just now, on my way to school..i was listening to the songs in my hp..then loads of thoughts came flowing in..and i was thinking of quite alot of stuff..about the past, abt the things that i said to mich and my bud over the phone for the past few days..then when the bus was abt to reach my scl's bus stop, no pne pressed the bell, so i did..then i stood up, without realising that my laptop's still on my lap..**pom**!!! ouch!! my laptop...i was thinking die liao..my laptop's already a lagtop...now still drop on the floor..dunno if it'll die on me..choy choy choy...thank God..xiao hei's still working..yea, xiao hei's is the name of my lappy..=) pls dun die..
yeah...yest wasn't exactly very exciting...had breakfast with the sides then headed church, service, bs training then had super late lunch cum dinner, then home then was assignment then chatted with my bud then zzz...exciting? no..haha..but i always love sundays
pics...
these were taken on fri at my attachment centre..haha..uber cute kids there!=)
these were taken yesterday(sun)..
the sistas...=) prisc, min, and shi hui...
the bros...amos and addi=)
that's cong..and er, dunno what's amos and cong doing..they were trying to link the score stand with the transformers thingy..as in, they were treating the stand as tho it can transform..lol..
cheryl and me...haha..hey dear, i noe u are super lovey dovey with your bf now..but dun 4get me ya..haha..will always be there for you=)
mummy kinda threw her temper at me yest evening when i got home..i was rather upset initially and i felt that her past hurts had caused her to not trust anyone beside her..instead of talking back, i told her that praying to God to heal her wounds will be the only way for her to feel better and that God is the only one that will not turn away from her..i'll continue to pray for you mummy..
yupx..yeahness..this sem's coming to an end!! woohooo=) i'm gonna see my lovely frens soon soon soon=)
God will make a way,
when there seems to be no way,
He works in ways we cannot see=)
He will make a way for me..
He'll be my guide,
hold me closely to His side..
with love and strength for each new day...
He'll make a way=)
by the roadway in the wilderness He'll lead me..yes, i noe God will lead me thru=)
yeeah..loads of stuffs running through my mind now...so, the things i write here is kinda messy and all over the place..
tata!=)
i kept looking at the one that kept turning away from me..
never did i realise you were always there for me..
thanks for all the encouragments and all the chats=)
feliciagarfield
12:43 PM
it was alot of food from the teacher today...first, she gave me a slice of v nice cake from four leaves, then she gave me a er, plum? or isit prune? i'm not sure..plum i tink..or isit prune?...
this chocolate cake is uber nice can..there was cranberries on it..
lunchtime..she gave me this fruit, plum or prune??..haha..
was attached to the toddlers class this morning..haha..uber cuteness=)
i'm so gonna miss them..haha..it took me quite some time to establish a close rapport with this kids..haha..i noe when i finish my attachments, even when i'm able to visit them during holis, its gonna be different cos the relationship won't be as close anymore...haha...tho they're really a very different grp of children..i still love them loads eh..haha..=)
especially this small lil boy with small eyes...other then he's ultra cute, the things he do and say will make you laugh....haha..his innocence...his smile!!.haha...
hmm,the problem/s still remain unsolve, but i think when i learn to hand all these unto God's hands, i no longer worry so much..all is well in His hands=) what eva happens, i know He'll carry me thru..instead of being so stress and upset, i'd learnt to hold on to God's mighty hands and help my family instead=) praying for them/the problem, doing what eva that i can do to help, get my things done, make them laugh, tell them how mighty God is..haha..
i'm moving on and recovering at the same time..yeah! thank God for you so love me=)
as for the rest of the stuffs/questions/doubts, i have learnt to be patient and wait and pray and pray and pray..
ahhh!! cucalamonga and meiting and prisc!! when are we meeting up?????...haha..!!
tutorial on mon afternoon!=)which means, i've got assignment to cheong again..haha..yeah..ECH pepx..jiayou for the DAC essay!=)
miss ya!
feliciagarfield
2:55 PM
this is the last second week of attachment...its truly amazing how time flies...i remember how sad i was when i first started the attachment...then when i start getting busy with the learning corners, lessonplans, assignments...the time just went zoom zoom zoom...haha..
think i'm gonna miss the kids here loads...=) yup..as for the teachers, some of them are real nice..some er...haha..i shan't elaborate here...haha...but i guess the ppl around me have heard the funny stuffs that had happened..haha..
the kids..=)
me with the 2 of them..i remember how they ignored my instructions and disrespectful they were..hmm, now they're so different..love them=)
hmmm....yup yup...my God is so big, so strong and so mighty!!=) humph..so what if the storm is big?? my GOD is much much bigger than the storm..haha...=)
i tink i hurt my ankle, dunno how i hurt it too..eh, think nm la..i also dunno...haha...
oki..here's a pic of winnie..haha..the first time she wore her booties, when she was 5mths old...love ya bao bei bei=)
i love you =)
lots of love....
feliciagarfield
1:59 PM
hey hey..yeahness..the assessment's over...thank God, thank you everyone for the encouragements and help=) haha...now, its all the evaluation and essays that i gonna complete..haha..
yeah, during the supervision yest..there were lil hiccups..but, i think i was quite calm abt it..haha..thank God for giving me that peaceful heart..haha..
i'm feeling super tired today..guess its cos all my attachement stress are somehow gone and i hope i can slack a lil now b4 i continue with all my essays and stuff..haha..
sometimes they are just too adorable=)
some pics taken during our previous tutorial=) 
hmm...
how deep is your love??
ok, here's an announcement for 1724 pepx..there'll be no 1724 this sat due to the bs teacher training..yupx..thanks thanks..=)
God's love is sooo great=)
i just want to noe..
love?
feliciagarfield
2:31 PM
hi there..yest was a super lovely sunday...went to watch happy potter..er, harry pooter....er, no la..watched harry potter with the SF..first time watch movie with the younger ones..haha..so, here are the ones that went: trissy, geraldine, dorothy, chester, hongxun, yixun, daryl, wei, jian wen, cong and i...=) yupx..12...din miss out anyone rite...
after that we went for dinner...few of them went back first...had pontian wanton mee..yupx..
this is jian wen..haha..haha..lol..
took some pics with da sistas=)
trissy mei mei=)
cons and me=) weee...
dotty dot dot..
tahaha..he's tired..
tml's my assessment thingy...pls...let me pass smoothly..=)
thx frontside..for helping me to print the stuffs..haha=) i owe you one milo godzilla...but if i can do well, i'll let you upsize to grande oki..haha...
kor kor..i miss you lei=) come back quickly oKi and be safe while you're at other countries=)
thank God for everything...1900-start-praying =)
feliciagarfield
1:52 PM
i'm feeling betta now..yes..thanks ppl..yup...
you know its really painful when you know that you are gonna lose something for sure. If that's God's will, i'll accept..but, i just need some time..yup..u noe it truly amazing how God put ppl in my life that treat me like da bian and hurt me like nobody's business and they themselves feel that its ok, then God will place nice ppl to encourage me..=)
yest nite..when i was on msn, i was quite upset by what one of my fren said and commented, was a lil frustrated too..then suddenly, one new msn window pop up..yeah, then i told this bro that its so saddening when u wan to treat your fren well and love him/her, but he/she just treat me like da bian..then he say, that's gd what..that's what a christian shld do, love the unlovable..then he said alot of things that made me really think..thanks for pointing me back to God..back to what i should do, and what i can do
when i told him that i noe that wat eva God does its for my own gd, including taking something away from me, just that now, at this moment i dunno how to let go and i need the time, and its so painful now..and that my heart is crying..
then he said on msn:
1) be honest to God, tell God your heart is crying and he will wipe every tear from it..(rev 7:17)
2)honour God with what you know
3)sista, i cry with you...
then he continued..
He isn't here to take from you. He's here to prune the things that take you away from him so that He can give MORE than you can imagine..
thx brother..you neva fail to encourage me and point me back to God=) really thank God for you to be in my life=)
then today when i was online, one msn window pop up..its another sista that i seldom have time to chat with now a days..she gave me this verses, i was so encouraged and touched by it:
trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight (proverbs 3:5-6)
thanks sista...=)
thx ruth and kat too=)
no doubt i noe that 1 fren that i love so much treat me like da bian, but God gave me so many other frens to encourage me, so, i shall not let that fren affect me and make me sad or angry and sin against God..because God so love me=)
thank you God..for putting them in my life..
yest..went to send teeeaanniieee...jeannie...she's back to aussie..starting scl on tue yea gurl!=) jiayou there ya...haha..rev yang, prisc, cong and i went...aft that had dinner at changi village..nice food there...we had alot of food..first time i tried this thing, under the crustacean grp..eh, ya,..its called tua tao..or big head..yeah, nice..but when i went home..late at nite..rashes..*faints*..not v itchy, but its rather disgusting...till now..thank God its only certain parts of my body that has the big big patch of rashes..
some pics...
winnie winnie winnie bao bei....
love her loads=)
and i love you all out there too!!including the one that treat me like da bian..haha...when assessment is over, i'm gonna go play play play...swim swim swim..tan tan tan ...have fun fun fun...cucalamonga + huang + prisci the huang's short short...hahaa...miss you all loads..and all the D pepx=)
praise the Lord..every moment..
Lord its hard for me to see, all the thoughts and plans you have for me.
but i will put my trust in you, knowing that you died to set me free..
but i dunno what to say,
and i dunno where to start,
but as you give the grace,
with all that's in my heart
i will sing, i will praise,
even in my darkest hour,
through the sorrows and the pain
i will sing
thank you God
feliciagarfield
10:45 AM
hola...i'm back aft a week lack of entries...life's still somehow the same...the probs still there..
many thanks to my bud, for lending me your ears..a pat on my shoulder was what i needed the most..thx..for sitting there quietly and giving me that encouraging pat that no words could fill in..yup..=)
to u the brother, thx for listening to me..hmm, willingly or unwillingly..it was just nice when you called, i just couldn't bottle up all my sadness anymore..then i cried over the phone, rant it..well, for a gurl to pour out her stuffs, its actually a way to destress..hmm, and yes, i did seek help from the pastor..just that at that point of time, i'm quite drained and tired liao..but anyway, thx lots for listening, it really din matter that you couldn't give me a solution to the prob, cos at that time, i only needed a pair of listening ears, an encouraging fren that will stand beside me when i needed the help=) i dunno if u noe i am talking abt u and trying to say thank you..
i want to do things myself..i dun wanna rely on anyone..
but really..many thanks to the pepx that had been with me throughout this period of time...
pics=)
took this last fri...yeahnes...i'm so in love with this small eye boy!! he's uber cute!!=)
the b'day gurl...
sat...1724 bbq...ooolala...=)
prettaye qin and i...
cons dar...
esther bestie...you shall not have the big red juicy strawberries cos of you BF..haha..=) love ya!
prisc the DONUT queen=)
jeannie...she's flying back to aust tml...teeaannniiieee!!
backside...you neva fail to laugh at my most silly acts and prompt me to do more of it..but u neva fail to encourage when u noe i needed it=)thx lots..
random pic...hohoho...not sure if wei will kill me for this..but no, i din take this..daryl did..haha..i only posted it here..
my bestie's red hot juicy strawberry..oops, i mean bf..haha..you shld have seen how red he was on sat...
=)assessment's next tue..i'm not ready for it..=(
sometimes i really wanna noe how you really feel,
if the one i noe is the real you..
just when i thought you left,
i see you there..
but when i thot you were there,
you turned your back and walk away..
feliciagarfield
2:25 PM
haven't been able to find time to write here...will do it soon..tomorrow maybe=)?
i need you to leave my heart for awhileso that i dun have to feel this way right now..
feliciagarfield
10:27 PM
yeah!! the production's over!! BIG big Claps for God!!=) If not for Him, nothing's gonna turn out well..haha..and yupx!..a big thank you to all the bros and sis that
gave their time, effort and loads of hardwork! but it's alot of joy serving together with you all=) and its really great cos rarely there'll be a chance to talk and chat with the younger bros and sis..
sat aft the production...took some pics...hmm, for my dear cucalamonga..i'll get the vcd then show it to you all oki..haha..
cons and me..its really alot of work for you my dear..remember beggining this yr we met in the evening to write the storyline and getting the pepx to act?...but thx lots for being our director=)
these bros of mine are uber cute!! zhong qi, chao wang and jiajun=) they're the logistics ppl..and their boss, non other than ah cong la!! thx loads pepx!!
then addi..acting as frankie..my son in the play..haha..=)he's always teasing me!!poootss!!!backside..
priscy prisc prisc..haha...she's the head for the publicity side this time round=) thanks alot...yupx!!=)
this is dot dot dorothy the dancer=)..
then sunday morning..we had service with the adults,but SF ppl led worship..haha..it was good..really..=)then we acted that play again..yupx..after the service, we pack up the stuff then headed to macs..
my bestie=)
haha..my beloved sistas and bros!!
ooo..did i mention to you all that jeannie is back for holi??haha..yeah! she's back...and we're having a bbq at her place at 6pm this sat...yeah..come pepx..come!
during service yesterday...when rev yang spoke to us abt the youth ministry..when he talked about families..hmmmm..i dunno how shall i blog it here...but no doubt, i really thank God for my church, my bros and sistas, family and my frens! of course winnie bao bei!!=)
its gonna be so busy for me/us !! all the ech ppl! jiayou!!...haha...all the mentor assessment, field soipervisor assessment, lessonplans, learning corners, take home activity..bla bla bla....
the probs that i have are still there...still so real..but, i'll continue to pray and suck thumb at the same time..=)
let's jiayou together!!!=)
love all you out there!!=)
feliciagarfield
2:40 PM
the production's tml...gosh..i can't believe it..yest's rehearsal was kinda alright..addi and yf wasn't able to come..i stand in for addi at the last scene..initially, i thot it was very funny..then slowly, i felt that i could relate to his role in the play more than my own role..hmm..btw, cons is really from soft ball la..and no joke..she is strong..haha..her push was for real la..haha..but i noe u have the gentle side of you too babe=) love ya!!..haha..
these pics were taken las sunday b4 rehearsals..
addi and i..
prettaye qin...she's so photogenic....
the cute lil sistas of mine...haha..first appearance in my blog..geraldine and joycelyn...=)
As for what's on my hair..its for the play la..haha..come, and u'll noe..haha..faints..
you noe when u come for attachment, when u are very stressed up with all the not completed stuffs, you do something to make you smile..take pics..haha..cutie pies!!
when i was on my way to the attachment centre this morning, i passed by a supermarket..and my fav LOTTE pepero Almond was on sale!!=) 2 for $1.90...ususally its $1.40 each...wheeee!!this brightened up my day!..tho i'm still feeling sleepy..haha...
i can't wait for monday to come..cos, we have tutorial, which means, we'll have to go to scl..which means i get to see my frens!!! yeahness!! haha..tho its super early in the morning..but, hu cares! i wanna see them!!
i believe in times of darknest..God will deliver me=)
i will keep smiling even tho its bleeding inside me..
feliciagarfield
2:05 PM
the production is this sat...i noe only a few of us knows how it really feels, to be on stage, and we all know we're doing it for God..but, its the struggles that we have to face..and its really difficult for us...
i have alot of random thoughts now...sigh..
i prayed, talked to my fren abt it...i made the decision..i noe for the next few years, God will lead me.. tho i really dunno what to expect..i'm neither happy nor sad, a lil anxious, a lil scared,..and the rest of my emotions are all mixed up...I will use my years that i have to serve God..=)
when mummy told me abt the new update about the stuff that had been happening recently, i was shock, i could bottle up all these stuff no more..when i told my bud abt how i pray for my dad, how i ask God to help him..this was what we get from my father at the end...i tried so hard to hold back my tears...no, i won't cry, i still have to help mummy..but, y? y must you do that?...you noe, its really tough for me to handle such situations, when i'm so young..when neither of my frens are facing this now nor do they have to worry anything about these......neither of them..i want a simpler life...
but i have faith in God, He'll lead me thru...
happy thoughts..yeahness..went to ps yest to settle some stuff, i totally forgot abt dawn saying that she'll be meeting cucalamonga at ps for the spotlight sale..goodness..i bumped into denise outside ps toilet..haha..and we look at each other for super long...when i realise it was really her, i was super happy!! took pics with mich and dawn...so sad, din get to take with denise cos she was no where near me when i was abt to leave..haha..but i love u all=) pei and peiling too!!
met addi then headed to church...there'll be another full dress rehearsal tonight..yup...then it'll be sat soon...
love ya pepx=)
sometimes i dun understand, the things that you do and say is totally different..but, why are u doing this? i noe i am in no position to say all these, but, i just dun understand..so many times u ask but u din seem to care, so many times you look but u dun bother, so many times you said no but ended up yes..well, aft so long, maybe, that's just you..my fren..sometimes ppl just want to be in the centre of the stage, in thier life, and other ppl's life, but well, i'm not gonna let u do this to me..i dun wana end up questioning myself and feel the torture and pain all over again..no way..dun come to me and say things that just dun tally with your actions, i'm afraid one day i'll find you too fake, too fake to even be in my life..dun, i dun wanna say that you're fake, cos, i'm so not in the position to say so..dun let me feel that...
feliciagarfield
2:32 PM
hey to all those that love me..yeah, i love u all too..=) guess i'm ok..getting use to my attachment life already i tink..even tho its tough, i believe i can do it..for the other stuff and other probs, i'm handing it to God, and meanwhile, i just suck thumb...
to kat: hey sista..its really ok to call or sms me when u need me or when u feel that i need you=) i love ya gurl=)
to mark: thx alot rashy=)realli...
to ruth: thanks alot for your concern..yeps..really..=)
to leting geraldine: haha..sweety pie..thanks loads loads=)
to my kickass bud: life without you is like backsideless la..haha..lol..=)
to yf: thanks for being such an encouraging fren=)
to pei: haha..yea, we're all suffering..i really miss cucalamonga...
and to all out there that read my blog and to those that care bout me and my life...really great thanks to you all...yup...i love you all loads too!!=
yeahness..thur, brought winnie for grooming...then now, she's botak once again..haha..hee, had been a long time since i last saw winnie's groomer..lol...
had our first full dress rehearsal on sunday...will post the pics up soon i tink..
watched transformers yest..it was like an ultra ultra good show ok...wa..if i can own a car, that will be so gd..but if my car can transform even better..so cool!!haha..had dinner b4 watching the show and chatted over dinner..i realise that when u get to know the fren well, you can actually understand how that fren is feeling even without completing his or her sentence..but poots to u bud..u just uncovered the other side of u yest..hah!...now, i tink i can say i really know u eh! haha..
while waiting for my fren yest, my supervisor called, as in, my ex workplace supervisor..asking if i wanted to work on 8th aug, since its holi, i agreed..yeahness, and cucalamonga's working too! haha..yea, and aft that he said some stuff that i thot was weird..haha..you are funny la!=)
children are so innocent..they are all gifts from God..but its the politics here..that makes me wanna puke..
till then pepx...=)
nope, i wasn't jealous,
i just din like what i saw,
i just din like what you did,
but i noe you are enjoying it..
bye!
feliciagarfield
2:37 PM
