e s o p h o r i a - it's all about how you perceive me.

had been quite sick this week...

mon was mc day..went to the clinic for both consultation and also for my checkup...got scolded for not doing bloodtest the other time when i went back for checkup...so, did the bloodtest on mon..

tue..was feeling betta..and every1's happy(see previous post)..haha..like duh?!seeing almost all of your friends after so long...=)o..got this pic from my hp..took this while waiting to go into the convention hall..huang my love=)

wed..was a bad flu day..went to work..did translation work..i dunno..but i guess its the first time in my department's history that translation work was needed...you noe, translating is more difficult than writing a compo..cos you gotta make sure that you keep all the meaning of what eva that's written in the original ones...hmm...hope i'd done a gd job...
met geraldine aka my daughter for lunch...=)

i ate this thing called polveron back at office aft i finish some of my translation work..polverons from philipines, brought back by one of the therapist..ate one and next thing..fever..lol...but it was really nice..=)

thur..worked then went back to look at my blood test results..thank God it was alright...cos the doc sounded v serious on mon...

fri...worked..fever..flu..sore throat..was suppose to meet 1724s for amos and wei's pre-ns dinner..sorry pepx..wasn't able to go...sorry...

today..suppose to attend a seminar at some church..still unwell to attend...was suppose to be betta this morning..then afternoon, wasn't gd again..sorry..

here's some random pics...

passed by winnie's playpen the other day then i saw these on her pillow..lol..she left these toys on top of the pillow before she came out from the playpen..cute ya=)

yest(fri)..guess we needed some fun while working...lol..one of my colleague was at the other side of the partition using that elmo to communicate with the colleague at her table...

bao bei winnie=)

i miss my longtermmedication..where are you all??hmm, i miss you all...really..do i need to say it out like that..i need you all...haiz..

omg..lol..the fever just burnt my brain..haha..tata!!

busy was just an excuse...u just din bother to...so i was right..it had no value in your eyes...
if you really cared, everything's gonna be much easier..

feliciagarfield
4:33 PM

its gonna be pictureful!!=)

hola=) graduation ceremony for NP school of HUMANITIES...and of course that includes ECH=)

so today was a busy day...maybe cos i woke up late so preparation time's real short...woke up in the morning then headed to esther's place to get my pair of shoes that i had left there for abt a week..

headed home, had my late breakfast+early lunch...prepared and packed my stuff...waited for mum to be ready and waited for prisc..o yeah..shared a cab to scl with prisc...

while waiting for prisc and cab...

it was rather rush for us when we reached scl cos we were kinda late..briefing already started when we entered the LT..lol..

then we had to walk from the LT to the convention hall, then sat there to wait for the VIPs' arrival, national anthem, VIP's speech, then presentation of the certs..bla bla bla...fast forward!!..the whole ceremony ended=)

me!!

PICs TIMe!!=)

we skipped the food at the recept area...took loads of pics..=) pose snap pose snap pose snap..lol..

i'm so uber touched kor..haha..rushed down from your workplace just for my grad ceremony then rushed off..but..when he got a call from mum and know that i wanted to take pics with him, he walked back from the car park..just for a few shots..haha..hee, he rushed back so, that explains y his hair's like that la..

anyway, do i look more like kor kor or look more like mummy?..or i dun look like any of them at all..tag my board/msn/say it straight infront of me lei..haha..=)

with the D gals..=) with sam, denise and tiff

yana, doreen, prisc, rina and mum+bro..

huang, denise and prisc...

grp pic with peggy/class, huang, faz, hidayah,and random pics i got from other frens..

group pics..

with philip our eva dearest 'hot' lecturer..mich's gonna be so jealous..neh neh=)

sorry for the super dark pic..cos i forgot to on my flash..this is the brightest that i can get with my fireworks prog..anyway..with peggy our lecturer cum yr 3 class mentor...

with geraldine, another of our lecturer that we so love and afraid of.haha....

the lovelies!!

with the lovely lecturers=)...i'll miss you all loads. the 3 lecturers that i really respect=)

hey D02..i'll miss you all tonns ya...hope the gd byes will be short..more meet ups soon ya!! gotta stay close like this till we're old and frail..with walking sticks in our hands and still teasing each other!!lol..

HEART D GALS=)

hey you..let's put everything aside and start anew shall we?

and you..i dunno y but i'm missing you already..

feliciagarfield
11:33 PM

o yeah..this is a happy entry..really=)

let's see...hmmm...

- you classify your frens in groups whereas i see each of my fren as different individuals and that every friendship's exclusive..so you make me feel like i'm just one of the fren in this grp of frens..
- when there's any probs i'll want to talk things out and try to find solution to it, but you'll choose to walk away and just let things cool off...
- perhaps cos of my family background, i can't tolerate some of the things that you do but you feel that its perfectly alright for you to do things like that..

so...

when you do things like that, i get upset,..then when i want to talk things out, you'll try to avoid talking abt it and walk away...then i get disappointed..then you continue to keep quiet..

perhaps how much i can't tolerate the things that you do is also how much you dun understand y i reacted the way i did too...hmm...

so now, i can analyse the prob and i know what's going on..so..how do i reconcile?...so much i want to talk abt it, so much you want to walk away...

frens, cute sia..how can 2 ppl of such different characters become gd frens?there's bound to be something that i've gotta learn here i guess...accepting the differences and love them=)

you'll neva read this entry i guess..but if you eva read this, do know i love you ya my fren=)..i won't stop you from walking away..but if one day you realise that you'd walked too far and need a break, just turn back ok...i'll be there..really..i'll be behind looking at you quietly making sure that you're safe=)

i guess if each friendship is not treated exclusively then its gonna be fragile, but on the other hand..each frienship should be handled with care...=) sorry frens if i had neglected you all in some ways or another..but i really appreciate each and everyone of you..that's y i'll meet up with you guys wheneva i have the time to...

if i can be less selfish, i wan to give more love to all of you all...really...

thanks kel and addi for the ears=)

winnie on the piano=)

the cupcake that made me smiled=)

''hey, y u close your eyes?!''..''nm la! just tell ppl that i have small eyes''...lol...ok..
he has small eyes..

no he dun...

@ ah kun...

uncle la kopi...

somehow i guess i can't live without frens..hee=)

LOVE all my frens out there loads=)

feliciagarfield
8:35 PM

halo..

sunday...headed town with prisc(qinyi) to look for my white long sleeves collared shirt for the grad ceremony..din manage to get anything there tho...

went to the botanical gardens with the 1724 pepx today...hot day but its nice la...brought winnie there too..there were 10 of us, 11 including winnie...esther, prisc, nat, cons, qin, sherman, amos, cong, wei and i...

picnic, chatted, sang a few songs, played...yup yup...lazy afternoon...

its always enjoyable to be people that you're familiar with...=) at least there'll be a period of time for me to put a stop to the stuff that i'm currently depressed with..=)

yup yup....winnie really enjoyed herself...she was really tired after she reached home..haha..

the bros and sistas...

winnie love!!=)

group pics=)

the not so candied de candied shot...

=)nite nite!!

a wrong decision that could cause so much pain..to choose you to be a gd fren but it turned out all to be like that...took me so long to realise this bad mistake..all the things you do..not delibrate, its just in you IN you....its difficult to be like how we use to be in the past.., cos all the things that had happened, you dun see it baby..you just dun realise... how do you really heal the crack of a cracked mirror, and how do you apologise when you see no fault in yourself at all..its all over...give me a chance to turn back time..i'll not allow you to hurt me like that...to know the real you just makes me depress...telling u so much abt myself and trusting you so much was a real mistake that i wan to grieve abt..

feliciagarfield
12:07 AM

hihi...life's been tiring and busy for me..everthing's kinda in bits and pieces now..gotta spend some time to put it back into order...no worries pepx..i'm alrite..or at least i tink i'm still sane..haha..lol...

hmm, just some pics up here...last fri..had this farewell lunch during lunch time...like duh..its farewell lunch..haha...so all of us suppose to prepare a dish, i bought all the ingredients on thus nite..but tadahh!!...i overslept on fri morning..so i went to the hawker centre to get other foodstuff instead..lol...

sat...zoo trip...to the zoo zoo zoo...with 30kids+30 volunteers+9staffs+1social worker..haha..cos we're not suppose to post the kids pics here so yeah..here's just some pics of my colleagues and i...

the grp pic..there's sheryl, noora, nadia, agatha, doreen, rina and gregory the social worker..hu's hu..haha..you guess?!!=)

headed back office for some debrief aft the zoo trip..then headed to get the food and some log items for the bbq..yeah..bbq at yiyuan's place..thanks lots=)hope everyone enjoyed it!!=)

the 1724s..=)

prisc loves donuts, prisc loves prawns=)

it was a gd time for all of us to catch up with each other's life...yupx...thank God for the time..a time to relax and have fun..and leaving other things aside..just to enjoy the presence of your bros and sis..and of course, gd food!!=)

i went swimming yest...wasn't a v gd experience...but thank God i'm still fine...=)

hey lovelies!! jiayou ya everyone=) gonna zzz soon...

tata!!

there's this person, i really dunno how to explain..its like what eva you do will neva really tally with what you say...like how you can say abt ppl being scandalous/fake online..but hey you, you're one of them too you noe...and many other things that you had said that made me think that you'd grown so much..but uh oh..i was wrong..sometimes things are just not supposed to be practiced this way...cos i'm disgusted by what you had done...neh, hu are you to comment abt others when you yourself's like that too, at least they dun hide things or beautify things like you do, just to cover the ugly things that you had done...bye bye!!=)...eh, i'm not angry, more of..er..more of digusted and amazed that how much i trusted you to believe all the lies, or perhaps they weren't meant to be lies, you just can't control what you wana do...falling into the lustful trap...amazing..haha..the sentence that you once jokingly said to me..'just when you think ppl don't noe what you're doing.'...how amazing to have a 'fren' like you in my life..made me learn quite a number of stuff tho=)

feliciagarfield
9:43 PM

hey hey..had been busy with work and stuff..and guess there's some error with my blogger..so yeah...will try to blog and upload the pics another time...
gd nite=)
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i dragged and dropped you into the recycle bin and cleared it away...
the bitter sweet pile of nonsense i had..

feliciagarfield
11:59 PM

hola..=)do i consider this wk a short wk since thur's a public holi..but i still took the same bus on thur..just that to a different destination..

thur late morning, headed airport to send amos off...be safe ya pal!!=)

amos' happy family...

and the oakley shades ''cool'' bro...

o yeah..so esther, cong and i were there to send him..haha..

enjoy ya trip!! will be praying for you!!=)

fri(today)...feeling really tired aft work..but ahahaha..there's always things to make me happy on some of the days..hee..haha..ONE of it's to head down to meet the D gals for dinner..haha=)

ok..some of you noe that i dread taking MRT in the past..but now i tink its not so bad aft all..

lol..so we had our dinner at foodcourt then headed to ice monster for dessert..shared the dessert..yums..but i thot the ice monster @ bugis was betta..=)

ooo=)my loves!!dawn, peiling, prisc and prisc brought a fren lorraine..but she was away while we took these pic..next time ya!!

ahh..next wk's gonna start real soon..nervous..keep me in ya prayers ya...=)

feliciagarfield
12:30 AM